Wednesday, April 30, 2008

From the Left

A USM Economics Professor and a student recently responded to the "From the Right" column in the Free Press. They were slamming the student about a number of different comments they had made during the semester; the one that stuck in my mind was the columnist assertion that the US has a free market, something the Professor/Student team also refuted. I was reminded of this when I cam across the following passage last night.

It's from Antonio Gramsci's Prison Notebooks:

The ideas of the Free Trade movement are based on a theoretical error whose practical origin is not hard to identify; they are based on a distinction between political society and civil society, which is made into and presented as an organic one, whereas in fact it is merely methodological. Thus it is asserted that economic activity belongs to civil society, and that the state must not intervene to regulate it. But since in actual reality civil society and the State are one and the same, it must be made clear that laissez-faire too is a form of State regulation, introduced and maintained by legislative and coercive means. It is a deliberative policy, conscious of its own ends, and not the spontaneous, automatic expression of economic facts. (Hoare and Nowell-Smith 1971, 159-160)

Monday, April 21, 2008

The stratigic use of 'um'

Thinking Matters has been a mixed blessing in someways. Though I am thoroughly please that I did it, the down side was it felt like the denouement to my thesis. Consequently I am having a hard time mustering energy to do the last few steps left.

Fortunately I have good reasons to procrastinate a bit longer: I waiting for feed back on chapter three from my advisers; corrections and advice from friends; a stack of other homework that needs addressing PRONTO! Well, that is what I am telling myself anyway.

That all being said, Thinking Matters was a blast, and the best way to see how I will do during my official thesis defense (scheduled for the 8th of May at 5pm: Room 302 Luther Bonney Hall). My presentation was ad lib-ed, with only a few notes and the Power Point as a trigger. It worked well except that, according to some critics, I over-used the term 'um' (often referred to as 'uhh') It makes sense, uhh, because I was, um, speaking of the top of my, uhh, head. As a result, um, I was only a sentence or two, uhh, ahead of myself; 'um', uhh, then acted as a pause for reflection. I think the, uhh, answer is for me to have more written down, and perhaps rehearsed a few times prior to the 8th.

The debate following all the presentations was really interesting also (as was the post-presentation debate & wine with AL), and gave me a few going points to reflect on. Considering the title of the thesis (Soccer in Politics: Bridging Gaps or Building Borders?), the question to ask is, is it an either or situation? Really, my conclusion is that it is both at the same time, and therein lies the problem. The critical multiculturalism I address at the end is, um, a way that this paradox can be controlled, but the paradox will still exist. See, soccer cannot be anything but a competitive game that pits one team/faction against another; if it were anything else, then it wouldn't be soccer anymore.

Anyway, tonight I'm thinking about a different paradox: Turkish society and its desire to be part of Europe, yet hold on to Islamic (i.e. non-western) traditions. Its a paper for my dear friend (literally!) MF.

Someone asked me what I did with my weekend after Thinking Matters: I went to Back Bay and played soccer. What else could I do?

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

"What we have here ...

...is a case of abandonment by the academic Father."

On the whole, this week goes down as one of the more bazaar in my academic life. Between the near completion of the thesis, my reaction to the departure of a mentor, the psycho-analysis applied to my reaction by a different mentor, and the snowball effect generated by an email sent about the Portland United Soccer League, I'm about ready to claim insanity and find a nice padded room. And yet ...

... I am amazingly calm. Things just seem to be falling into place at the moment. Its all a bit daoist if you ask me...

What KB said about my reaction to DB's premature departure was interesting. Am I projecting fears onto his way of doing things? What fears? Abandonment? Why am I taking it personal? In any case, even if I don't entirely agree, its nice to get perspective on things. I was over-reacting, particularly because I'm not in this for the grade. Have I gotten something out of this? Amazing amounts.

The crown on the week has been Thinking Matters and the first public presentation of my thesis. I think it was generally well received, interesting to people, and worthy of further debate. After I went for a wine with AL and got further into the debate. AL is always a good person to review theories with. As the winner of the Academic Freedom Essay Contest, he has an impressive mind.

What lies ahead this week? Finishing up my paper on Turkey, editing the thesis, and all that. But for the rest of the night and tomorrow: nothing. No work, no homework, no thesis. Just a break.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

But conversation is where it's at ...

... and being relegated always hurts.

I had my most spontaneous insight into Critical Multiculturalism during a café conversation with L on Saturday. I have been struggling with the last part of my thesis; the part where I analyze my own experience, so this insight came at a good moment. The conversation went as follows:

A community with an exclusive view of its own identity, in this case we were talking about the deaf community, discriminates against all others they don't think meet the standards of "deaf-ness." This doesn't mean a hearing person can't be accepted by the deaf community, be friends, or even be married to a deaf person, but if that hearing individual wishes to be identified as deaf, that is, if they take their personal identity from the deaf community, they will never be accepted as such.

This is the same principle that underlies nationalism. It is not inherently violent against outsiders, but it is the final authority on who can and cannot be a part of the 'group'; a person wishing to identify themselves as a certain nationality or culture must first get approval of that culture or nationality (often in the form of passports). In this sense, a persons own feelings about where they belong in the world are secondary. As I mentioned above, this in-and-of itself will not lead to violence every time, but it is the mechanism that permits violent behavior to be encouraged, as it places one identity/nationality/community above the others.

This means there is never a true acceptance of the individual within these groups, nor is there ever an acceptance of outsiders either. This static, rigid interpretation of culture, or community and of identity essentializes norms and values to the point of creating division and and an unwillingness to share yourself, your rituals, with others for fear of it being corrupted. Under the right circumstances, this leads to violence. By circumstances I mean economic insecurity, territorial insecurity, etc. In these situations leaders will emphasize the differences between yourself and the 'other' in order to pit you against the other. We see this in the US with the fear of Arabs, in the Balkans between Serbia and Kosovo, in Asia between China and Tibet.

What Critical Multiculturalism offers is an opportunity recognize that culture is not an inherent 'thing' that we are born with, that cannot change, and that its standards are exclusive. Culture and community should rather be seen as fluid, evolutionary, learned and inclusive, as this will permit a much deeper understanding of the 'other' and a reduction in one's possessiveness of your own culture. Identity is inevitable; we need a world-view in order to understand what goes on around us in the world, and as such it is inevitable. But this doesn't mean it has to be exclusivist and divisive. A critical multiculturalist attempts to challenge their own ideology by going into the cultures of others, living as they do, and then looks back at themselves. This perspective exposes the power dynamics of cross-cultural relationships and de-essentializes norms and values.

Ultimately, this is not about giving up your own values, but simply about being able and willing to look at yourself from the 'other' perspective, and having a willingness for you culture to change. This means shedding your 'ownership' of your identity and accepting a individual on their own terms, not on the terms you want them to operate. But this is also a huge challenge to the status quo and a very difficult thing to achieve, even for someone as willing as me.

How is this relevant to soccer? Soccer should never be so important that it prevents you from seeing other things as important ... just kidding. Soccer is a bit antithetical to Critical Multiculturalism as it emphasizes a team mentality. But as long as soccer is not a metaphor for the norms and values in society, as long as it is not held up as symbolic of the power of the culture, then it can be a positive communal game and bloody good fun!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

...and the outdoor season is announced

I happened to look up from my computer at 544 pm to take in the view of back bay. I am in my usual position in the Glickman, slaving over this thesis. My eyes were drawn to the patch of grass behind the large Hanaford by moving figures. I focused my eyes and saw men; men chasing a white leather ball. These men are playing soccer. At present I am struggling to compose a personal soccer ethnography based on last years experience in the PUSL, and I long to be down there on the pitch with these men. I have not played soccer in almost four weeks, and I need it. It is so tempting to pack up the bag right now, and go play. After all, I need constant praxis of this topic if I am to truly understand it.

...but alas, I won't make my debut today. I'll save that for the weekend, or next week. I am looking forward to it: playing with Portland's immigrants and soccer fans, playing with friends, and playing for fun. These pick up games are football at its most pure. No money, no ideology, none of Schmitt's thesis anywhere to be seen. Out there, it is not friend against enemy, its deft dribbling, soft touches, splitting passes, and laughter. After the sun sets an it's to dark to play, the game abandons and we all go home until the next time.

I can't wait...

Monday, April 7, 2008

Progress = one step forward, two steps back...

I need an external drive full of energy for these next two weeks ...

Certain developments mean I have to have a completed rough draft of the whole thesis in by the 18th of this month, so the next two weeks are going to be devoid of fun of any kind. But it looks like I am getting my thesis defense on Thursday or Friday of Finals week, which is cool. Would love to have my folks there...

I also found a cool grant that I might be able to use for a project in the Balkans. So when I have some down time, or need a break from the thesis, then I can cook up a good project for myself. It needs to have civic engagement in it, and has to be something that will put me in the community, and working with individuals from that community. I would love it to build off of this thesis, so it should involve soccer.

In other news, the German DFB thinks its time for the 'peaceful' fans in the stadiums to be doing the work of the police. I guess there was an incident of fans throwing fireworks around in Frankfurt, so the DFB wants fans to regulate each other in such events... This feels like a rather indirect admission of an awareness to not having the control they appear to have. I also think there is no way this will work; not only do fans generally side with one another against law enforcement inside a stadium, but the group mentality means no individual is likely to speak up when they see others doing something the wider group may approve of.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Going to Ghana

My friend Sam is heading for a two year post in Ghana with the Peace Corps this September. I can't think of a finer person to have an opportunity to go abroad and do work he loves. He wrote a letter to his friends via facebook that made me reflect on what it takes to do something like this: to willingly give up all of your western comforts, your friends, and turn away from home for over 700 days strait. Its a great thing to do; to go live in another part of the world on their terms, subject to their culture.

I believe Sam will understand better than most the reality of the community he is working with as a result. He is putting his own ideology to the ultimate test and subjecting it to a most rigorous exam. It's going to be great.

What is the point of this? Sam is living those things I am only fantasizing about, and it makes me feel foolish. I am having a tough semester with my thesis, the math class, and all the waiting around for a decision on whether the University is going to make me stay another year or not. I feel like I need a real change, like I need to get away from the West and see how brutal life really can be outside of the white picket fences. I think this will be the true test of my theoretical beliefs.

For the last 6 months, under the guidance of one of my mentors I have discovered a whole new world view; one that seemed to confirm feelings I have had for so many year, and that wasn't based in division. For these last months I have sat around and talked peoples ear off about this stuff, becoming a really ideological person as a result, no longer laughing. As I am now reflecting on this transition, I realize how much I have learned and how much more articulate I have become on the things that matter to me: race, immigration, discrimination, and identity. But it has also shaken me up and left me with little to hold on to.

As a result, it has pushed me back towards the wisdom of the Dao De Jing; I find myself reading from it almost every day, and feeling more connected than ever to the text. I can't say that it has penetrated to the deepest parts of my identity (those parts that control reactions), but more and more, I find myself asking what the Dao might suggest. I find myself criticizing the path I have been on for the last 6 months.

I am not a coersive person, nor do I want to be. I'm not interested in power or money or success. Of course, I have dreams of wealth and power, but that I only because I was brought up in a world that preached such things as being virtuous. They are not however, they are so meaningless in the schematic of life. I am going to have a hard time shaking this over the next three days in NJ as I go pretend to be someone I am not, hoping to trick people into dismantling a national symbol under the guise of patriotism. Yeah, I love the end result, but I can't love the method. How legitimate can it be if we are only achieving change through deception? How different is that from the normative behavior of any hegemon?

Sam is giving up power in order to help conserve natural resources and protect the environment. He is not doing it for the girls, or for the fame, but because he loves it, and because he is good at it. I want that kind of experience; I want to look back and see my life littered with such activities. Its not about legacy however, but about happiness and fulfillment.

Importance is so subjective, so go do what you think is important, and go do it because you love it.